In loving memory of XueXue.
Among the treasure of photos and videos, I loved this. Look at how smug your face was! Coupled with those round beady eyes, you always wore this angelic looking appearance. And it was that very face that stole our hearts from the day we saw you at farmart. Alas! We were fooled. You were a far cry from an angel. You constantly destroyed every single rattan ball we gave you to play, threw your princess tantrums whenever I tried to salvage what was left of my shredded homework, pooped on my newly washed clothes, chewed on every single thing that round beady eyes spied upon. Oh! And let’s not forget how you’d mimic the mynahs’ screeching outside my window. You’d turn yourself into an alarm that never failed to go off at 7am with sharp piercing screams and chirps every single day. Which was, particularly annoying on Sundays. It was countless, all the terrible things that you did which would leave me infuriated! Yet at this very moment.
I sit here in between tears, wishing for you to wreck everything within my vicinity once more.
It’s too quiet –
You, who would chirp every single time you heard our footsteps from behind the door. I missed it. You, who would always wolf-whistle to greet us. I missed it. You, who would mock us with your mimicry sneezes right after we sneezed. I missed it. You, who would perch on my shoulders and head to sleep. I missed it. You, who would leave a trail of mass destruction wherever you go. I missed it. You, who would gladly sit beside me chewing my stationeries as I studied. I missed it. You, who would peek out whenever I called XueXue. I missed it. You, who would be delighted at the sound of plastics. I missed it. You, who would stuff ribbons and paper shreds in your feathers. I missed it. You, who would climb on me whenever I was napping. I missed it. You, who would always take a bite out of everything I ate. I missed it. You, who would accompany me for grocery shopping. I missed it. You, who would be all well-behaved whenever we went out. I missed it. You, who would step up, turn and fly towards me when I called. I missed it.
You, who had uncountable ridiculous yet so adorable you.. I missed them all.
I miss you so so much XueXue.
My silly miniature hulk who was so intelligent and endearing. It feels as though you’ve chewed a whole chunk of my heart and brought it with you to heaven. I tell myself plenty of times to be happy for you, but whenever I come back to this silence. My heart ached so badly that I’d end up in tears. You, became so much more than just a friend.
You are a part of me. You are family.
And family means nobody gets left behind, or forgotten.